Hello, blog friends. It’s been a bit quiet around here lately, no? That must mean one of a few things:
a) I’m up to no good. (You know, like how if you don’t hear kids in the other room they must have gotten into something.)
b) I’m having so much fun that I’m too busy to blog.
c) Life is out of control and I’m just too busy to blog.
In case you’re having a hard time deciding which one it is, what if I told you that I had a major meltdown the other day that involved crying at work (great….), crying in my car, and crying once I got home because I was upset that my clothes were all over the floor. Yeah. That happened. The answer to today’s quiz questions is definitely c.
The blog is usually my happy place, so I apologize for the seriousness today. But I think the crying about the clothes on the floor might just be a new level of crazy. You see, on any given day, my clothes are generally on the floor. A lot of people don’t believe me, but I’m actually quite messy. (It’s just that once I put things away they all have to have a nice, pretty place to go.) But I don’t actually like them there and it was just one more sign things had gotten out of control because I hadn’t picked them up in a while. Also, to back up a bit, I don’t cry very often so crying in general is a sign that things are out of control. Oh, and one more to add to the list, I had a TSA in Ft. Lauderdale (I guess I can’t say I’m not having any fun lately…) ask me last weekend while trying to get home if I knew my driver’s license was expired. Um, no, forgot about that. Swear I took care of it though. And thank you very much for letting me through security because that could have been bad. OMG.
Before you get too worried, I am actually OK. And my life is certainly not that bad. It’s not perfect, but it’s generally pretty great. I’m just so tired right now. So. Very. Tired. As I alluded to in my last post, there are some things I want/need to get figured out this year. Not easy things. They can’t be done right away, but they’re constantly swirling through my head. There are also the “minor” issues of certain things not being entirely in my control (and I like control) and there being multiple possible paths to get to the end goals. So, combine all of that with my busiest time at work and eventually it gets overwhelming. But things should be getting better at work soon. And I’ll just keep working to figure out the bigger, longer term solutions to the things that I need to.
The good news is, despite everything that I might not have right yet, I picked the best husband ever. He is kind, and helpful, and gives the best hugs. So, as always, thank you, Pete.
Oh, and since my Mom keeps reminding me I’m supposed to be sparkly this year, there was at least one sparkly thing. These are my birthday shoes. They left glitter all over the floor under my desk though. Oops!
One more side note entirely unrelated to this post – I went to the Modern Wing of the Art Institute today with Tiffany and Heidi so get to cross that off as a belated item on my 30 Before 30 list! The space is quite beautiful but the trip just re-confirmed that I don’t quite get modern art. :)